Procrastination

(July 30, 2010 Tumblr Post)

I had my new Journal. I told you because you might wonder why I hadn’t visited this site anymore, or why I hadn’t posted anything for quite a while. I had my new Journal. I figured out it would be better to have immediate access like a notebook or somewhat, as ideas can be ephemeral and I could not always utilize the computer from time to time. With great ease, I am able to express everything in the new Journal, due to my not minding what words are proper or appropriate for me to say there. Unlike in sites like this, many might read and discover stuff that could be possibly used as a weapon to ruin my image or to shame my part. I could not say my new Journal would be safe from others, but a notebook full of records from a day-to-day interaction with the world is completely appealing to me; I don’t understand but its sight is beauty to me especially when it gets old and brown, it would be so classy. I don’t care if others might read it, but it would totally be pleasing to me that they could see a wondrous creation (well, that’s the other half of the readers’ probable reactions).

(I just had few things in my mind and I could’ve written them here, unfortunately I had that terrible deciding again not to because some people—-like my siblings/relatives—-might view this. I hate this. That is why I preferred writing in a notebook.)

This is not good-bye, totally. I will return when I have time being confident again to speak my mind here. This is funny. Hey, have I told some horrible things happened today? Yeah! You’ve got to know them. Uhmmm, you know I just had an awesome idea. I shall write my Journal here someday. Yes! I will.